A letter to my baby boy

Michael Austin,

The time is getting closer to when I finally get to hold you. I feel so close to you already but it will be different when I get to carry you in my arms and not just in my belly. There are so many things I want to tell you. I want to tell you that from the beginning you were always wanted. Your dad and I always wanted a baby boy, we called you "Little Mike" before you were even in my tummy. When I found out I was having you I already knew you were a boy. I'll always remember the first time I felt you kick, it felt like little butterflies in my stomach. I'll never forget that moment. Your kicks have gotten to be so much stronger. I can see your little feet poke out through my skin now. We are so excited that we get to meet you in just a few days.

You have already made me a better person. You have made me cherish the gift of life so much more and believe in miracles. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank God for being able to carry you inside of me. I have prayed for you and your health every single day since I knew I was growing you. You have truly been the best baby in my tummy. Because of you everyday I pray for women who are having a hard time having babies because I wish for them to be able to feel what I feel for you. I already can't imagine my life without you in it. You are one loved little boy by so many.

Your daddy is already so proud of you. He tells everyone how big and strong you are. As soon as the doctor gives us a new picture of you he sends it to everyone he can. He took a pair of your shoes out of your closet and put them next to his shoes in his closet. He is excited to put you in them soon. He talks about the baseball games that he wants to take you to. He wants to take you to $1 hotdog night at the Rangers ballpark, that is his favorite time. I can't wait to see your face when the planes fly over the ballpark or the first time you get to see the fireworks. Your dad talks about taking you wakeboarding on the boat when you are older and your first tube float down the Frio River. He really wants to see you jump off a rope swing into the water. I can wait for all of this, I'm not ready to see you that grown up yet. I'll always see you as my baby, but I promise to let you grow up. I promise to always keep you safe and I promise to always put you before myself. I promise you will always know how much I love you.

Your sisters are so ready to meet you. Miller lays in your nursery everyday. I think she knows you are coming soon. She's going to be very protective of you. So is your other sister Brittany. She loves babies. She is going to kiss you a lot and will never leave your side when she comes to visit. Little Ella is not sure what to think of you just yet. She knows you're in my tummy because she can feel your kicks at night when she is sleeping next to me. They love to go on walks and they are so excited for you to come with us.

There are so many people that cannot wait to see you. Your grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, & neighbors are all so excited to meet you. Everyone prays for you and sends your dad & I the nicest messages and most thoughtful gifts just for you. Your nursery is ready. We decorated it in a sports theme, mainly football and baseball because we think those will be your favorite. I love being in your room, even if I am just in there folding your clothes and blankets. Sometimes I just walk in there to imagine what it is going to be like when you are here. I can't believe you are ours and I absolutely cannot wait to hold you. I love you Michael Austin White.